Monday, October 3, 2016

Life Update | I love myself

Hi all!

Long time no see. Yet again lol.

It's been 2 months since my life has changed... quite a bit. And with the change, there would be inevitable changes but the biggest change came unexpectedly.

My relationship, my lifestyle, where I'm staying, the circle of people around me etc.

I think I need to get this out of my system so I can move forward completely without any baggage.

Some of you would know if you were my friend on Facebook that I broke up with my long-time boyfriend (now ex) since 2 months back. And now, I'm seeing someone else now, a good friend before this. I never expected to see someone this early on, but somethings are just meant to be. Honestly, it's like a dream. I believe the Universe knows what's best for me and I am grateful for that.

I must admit that I dreamed of so many things I would set into motion when the change happened, the instant I moved room. So many things I'd be achieving overnight... or so I thought. I thought I would be a changed person like "snap!" just like that. Like more productive, achieving what I want with gusto.

But I think things like that don't really happen in real life. At least not for me. These 2 months saw me being very, very busy settling down in my room, my social life flourished, I saw myself reconnecting more with people that mattered (i.e. my family) and adapting to the new lifestyle and freedom.

And also I'm lazy. LOL.

But whatever it is, I think change is more gradual than anything. Especially when it's more to what you're dealing inside.

There are a few goals I want to achieve and one of them that I think I'm making progress is my fitness goal. To tell the truth, fitness and my body image was never a problem for me. Of course, there is room for improvement.

But more than that, I would really love to improve my chess and take it to the next level. Honestly speaking, for me, making a mental breakthrough is 10x harder than making a physical breakthrough. That's what mundane tasks and staring into my phone for hours on end can do to the activity of my brain. That discipline is another level.

Anywayyy, now that he's in the US, I have time to consolidate my thoughts and really, there's no more excuse to not start what I started.

I have a lovely room, good people in my life, opportunities, time waiting to be used in the best way possible. I have everything I need inside me. All I need to do is start.

Till then, be happy and be safe!